So since my last post a few things have happened, I have fallen in love and out of it again, kissed a few frogs, traveled to an enchanted kingdom called the South and had correspondence with people I thought had left my life for good, but more importantly I discovered that your real friends will not only tell you the good things you need to hear but they will equally point out the bad things because it is these people who know you best. It is your friends who act as the true mirrors of ourselves and love in-spite of the flaws.....

So now it's time to introduce a friend.. he will hate this but since I will never tell him I am doing this it's ok..

Meet David, he is one of my best friends and I have known him for about 23 years. It was with him that I fell so in love with a man it I could think of nothing else. It was also with him I had the my first real heartbreak. David will always be known as 'Girl' to me. The Nickname he hates and the one I gave him after many events that I felt deserve some recognition and thus was born a name..

I met David at my first real job, well actually I met his lover or rather his future lover Alan there. Alan was one of those gay men who thought it was better to be seen as BUTCH so that people didn't think less of him (more on Alan in the future.. PS, I am not spelling his name right because I hate him and if he reads this it will bother him). So back to my rant.. Alan and I became friends quickly. I discovered that he was interested in David who I didn't know well other than he was from the same general area in the backwoods I was from. I made the introductions and I may have fanned the flames a little to get the relationship kickstarted. It would go on to be David's best, longest and worst relationship ever. And the breakup would be epic but that wouldn't come for another 4 years.

Not long after David and Alan started to date I had to fire David. Which being that he and I were good friends made for an uncomfortable situation.  Our friendship survived it but nearly didn't my heartbreak years later.

David had two timelines for many years WA (With Alan) and AA(After Alan). I am happy to say that we no longer measure time in this way. And it is in the years AA that David and I become the best of friends. It was with David that I have traveled the world and it was with David that I could mourn my mothers passing when I couldn't in front of anyone else. For these reasons, that David will always be my dearest friend.

Through it all David and I have remained very close and it is his house, not my families, that I stay at when I go home.

More on David later.

My First Post.....

I was born in North Carolina on a warm and sunny August day in 1968 to the oddest two people in the world.. my parents were, well, that is for later..

I am currently in the process of moving from my life in Florida to a new Life in Georgia... not sure how I feel about that considering I love my life here.. well most aspects of it at least.

So who am I, I am Jeffrey and this blog is about me and how my midlife gay crisis has brought me to this point in my life. You see, I am not a very open person and recent life events pushed me to change the person I was into a someone I thought I should be with both positive and negative affects. The first blog for me is just an attempt to share my life with others.

When I first decided to write about my life I was curious if anyone would be interested and then I remembered that I had asked myself that same question my whole life about anything I was involved in . 'would the kids be interested in me' when I started school, 'would that boy think I was interesting enough to go out with me' the first time I went to a gay bar and so on..

Will anyone be 'interested'.. at this point, I am not sure I care.. I have learned that people either care or don't and you are never going to change their minds.

So, welcome to my story..... we will see what is to come and where my new adventure takes me.. if its like my other moves it is bound to be interesting..

Jeffrey.. 9/21/2012